Being creative is second nature to me, it is a journey I started in childhood when I used to draw, colour & make costumes. This emerged into cake decorating where I modelled, sculptured and used architecture with design elements on cakes. I also learnt how to sew from my mother and I spent a lot of time on building sites learning about different materials, being my father was a builder, decorator. In all it was a good foundation in understanding 2D and 3D aspects of working with materials, colour, design and spaces.  

There was however something else happening in my childhood that was not so welcome. As at that time I did not know my own identity or realise the gifts I had on the spiritual level, where not an average normal or an everyday occurrence in peoples lives. I was very misunderstood, I was extremely psychic, clairvoyant and empathic. I was also living in a dark place geographically, so I was haunted by earth bound souls. Second to that was the dark shadows that where present in the land and the family dynamics where I was walked over being the youngest, as also the abuse I was subjected too in childhood. Art, crafts, creativity then became a self-therapy as I sat alone whilst witnessing the ethereal dimensions beyond the physical plane sometimes in awe, at other times in terror.

The fear was overwhelming, I was broken within, my soul fragmented from trauma and abuse, I was living in two worlds, the physical plan and the energetic soup of the spiritual plan. The atmosphere of home life was dark; the land our family home was built on was haunted and there were other dark aspects at work around me. It did not help when the local council knocked down an old Victorian women’s prison behind the garden of the family home, which had in the past housed some mentally ill individuals. As the bulldozers went in, the bricks fell to the ground, a dark dense fog of energy came out the torn down building on the spiritual level and I was invaded. Lost souls, dark entities and distorted shadows surrounded me, I could see them and I was alone with it, as no one believed me, I got labelled mad, different, I had an overactive imagination. I was three years old I did not know what normal was, that was just my reality at the time.

In my later years I studied colour healing, got attuned to reiki energy healing and sat in a mediumship circle for a decade. I also had psychic surgery to remove unwanted attachments from my light energy body that had got in when I was a child. I was growing spiritually, realigning, healing within and emerging as a mystic, psychic reader. I could see auras, the shadow’s and attachments in peoples psyches and astral travel to do distant healing. The light was emerging in my life.

I then embrassed a BA Hons in fine art painting at Wimbledon School of Art, which took me into deeper studies of Rudolf Steiners theories of the spirited in art practices & his school of thought on spiritual consciousness as a channel for light.

But as I painted abstract compositions on canvas, loving the feel of paint and mixing colours, I became aware of a shadow emerging. The more layers of unwanted negative conditioning, unwanted attachments I removed on the spiritual level, the more profound the shadows became. I then started to see the shadows in people and read their energetic imprints as I saw through the masks they wear in society, their forceness, the seen to be with the masked persona in social structures.

This led to creating a ghostly cloak, something that resembled what I could see with my clairvoyance, the lack of light, it was a therapeutic exercise, the manifestation of my own shadow in a physical form, a theatrical sculptural costume. With threads and torn fabrics sewen onto it to represent the cords of the past, then I had to wear it, photograph myself in it in different settings, play around creatively with it, do performance art in it, then burn it for the spiritual purpose of cleansing my past.

My friends wanted to join in, it was fun, theatrical, interactive and people wanted to see themselves in an art form. This is how I developed my ghost series through costume, film, photography and some digital media to create the prints. Which are a representative universal archetype of a ghost with theatrical costumes, the shadows in ethereal dimensions and the psychological imprints of the psyche. Which came from my studies of Carl Jung and stoicism for a deeper understanding of my personnel experiences and self-empowerment. 

The reason they were created with tatty, stained, worn fabric, with holes to represent injury, the pain of the past from life’s beaten trail, negative subconscious programming and other unwanted damaging aspects humans are subjected too. 

They are however just recycled bed sheets, old upcycled curtains, with theatrical masks, wigs and props. That I used to express my world of inner pain that was seeking expression. Be it the abuse, betrayal, persecution, abandenment, fragmentation, from a dysfunctional family and a haunted landscape in my childhood. This is the imprint of the shadow.

Some however have merged into a lighter more playful roll, where I have used colour in tones, as the artist in me is seeking the light and wanting to express a silky smoother side to life too.

The physical material art form together with my deeper knowledge of soul and spirit merge into one aspect when I play ghost, be it film, print or performance art. The concept of the project has many avenues being about spirit, the unseen inner worlds of our shadow in the psyche, ghosts and hauntings, as well as theatre.

I now have a collection of ghost costumes, the ghosts of my childhood are gone and I help a few trapped souls, ghosts I come across on my journey in life to move on into the light of peace at times from the insights and knowledge I gained. That was my rich tapestry in life, born from experience, wanted or unwanted. The rest is an art form, a way to communicate. express myself and bring play, joy into what was fear in childhood. The possibilities are endless as an art form and it brings in a deeper engagement with self-growth and inner transformation work with the psyche, from the subconscious shadow self that lacks light.

And my latest tool, form of expression is AI which I use for the purpose of social media only, by using ghost photos and giving AI prompts. It is another form of creativity, but I do not use AI in the actual images I develop for art prints.

I also continue to paint abstract compositions on canvas, in the study of colour, light and spirituality. Hence my life has now become a meditation of colour, researching light, where my awareness gives me insights into the shadows of humanity. As art to me is a spiritual practice where I can observe the external seen physicality of colour, textures, materials, shadow & light. Or see beyond into ethereal dimensions to observe the colours within light or the lack of colour in the shadows created by man.

This is the new age concept of intuition, psychic awareness, healing the light energy body and ascension. Which is embodied in my art practices. Through my own re-alignment, developed awareness and inner transformation I now see through the masks people wear, sense and see their energetic imprint, what is hidden, what is attached in the mechanics of their psyche. And I still feel the energetic imprints in buildings, geographic locations, high or low frequency, but I am now wiser, trained in how to deal with what is needed on the spiritual level, from a deeper awareness. Whilst my inner child gets to play ghost with theatrical masks and costumes.